A black goodbye

I've said my goodbyes...many times
Yesterday was perhaps my last one
Emotion after emotion...which grown along this -so called- lesson of life.
It started as simple as life itself should be
"I love you..."

But it contains three complicated things
Love, what it was that it just so blinded me to think i could go the distance, against all odds even God? Was love a mental madness that human concealed deep down inside their sanity?

You, who were you and who you are? Once you were the man who would fight dragons for me...with a simple kiss you could ease all my worries and the fear of not able to have you for the rest of my life.
And now...you are the man who turned your back on me...tearing my world apart, leaving me empty with a simple words of goodbye.
I never asked you to choose me. But the moment you took my hand you should known better...
And the decision of your logics to leave me for the sake of your -so called- perfect institution it was just a masquerade you put on to hide your selfish ego.

I, was and perhaps still love you. As they told me time will heal all wounds. But can they cure love?
I've been divided my soul as one person who loves you with the person who hates you as much as the fish hates open air.
A minute i feel like to hurt you so bad, the a minute after that i just want to see you smile again, even if you are not with me anymore.
You are a mean person, they said.
You never did see me cry for every wrong thing you did to me and i do pray that someday God somehow would let you see that in His own way.
But what everyone didn't know was you were the person...i love.
As bad and wrong you are...i LOVE you.
All i want to hear from you...was it all just a lie?
You  remain silent, a coward who just got his card all opened up in the table.
Now all you have is the bluff...
Just break the silence...
You hurt me so bad...
Goddbye, lucky number seven
You need all the luck in your life since now i won't be part of it anymore.