30 September

I guess a lot of people had forgotten all about the 30 S PKI. I remember when i was a little kid, my dad took me n my sis to the movie. Guess what movie that we watched? Yup, the 30 S PKI!
I still remember vividly how terrified i was the whole time and i kept begging my dad to take me home.
After that i swear myself that i would never see that movie ever again, until highschool teacher gave me the assigment to make the review of that movie. Worst assignment ever, i'd rather took the knife and cut some frog to learn its anatomy!
When i was a kid, i didn't understand why my dad would let me saw that horrifying movie (i still consider it as one of the box office horror movie ever made, competing with Saw).
As i grew up i began to know more about my dad. One thing which i admire about him and the reason he took me to see the movie, is his patriotic soul.
He would make sure his girls would never forget about their identity as Indonesian -though half.
So, i'm glad that they decided to stop airing that movie on national television. And as my dad, i guess he learned better to take us to the museum instead. Not the Lubang Buaya, cause i freaked out, but more subtle museum.

Losing

Why feel missing for something you can never have
it's not lost when it's never yours
it's never a memory when it's not exist
One's heart it's not broken when it should never feel

Damn it!

Damn it! I miss you...

FALLING

Now it happens once or twice
someone has to pay the price
'cause you know what they say
you can't have it all your way

For it has been told
blind is she who loves
who consider one man as her whole world
and forget herself

I fall once, I fall twice
and now i must pay the price
for I know what they say
I may have lost my way

In the Fall

Why come now?
Why not in June or in April
Or not ever

Why feel now?
Why not yesterday or a few years back
Or never at all

Why it has to be you?
Why not the Man in Summer or the Boy in Springtime
Or no one ever

Why now?In the Fall, falling, and...you