Monday, November 26, 2012

Gumati 2005

Same song, same cafe
But it's a wrong time
I'd let things go
But it stays

At that corner
Framed a blur memory
A fragment of my forgotten life
But it stays

I walked away
Not wanting to look back
Not wanting to remember
But it stays

What's broken cannot be mend
What's been gone cannot be regain
And maybe it will always stay there
Framed, silent and forgotten

I looked away from it...and you

Sunday, November 11, 2012

You Found Me (and it was too late)

I found love but it was too late
time has given it away
and i said to love
"why'd you have to wait to find me?"

Never is the time to have you
so why must you found me?
I was never meant to be found
and so did you

You found me
the one you should leave behind
and i found you
the one who should always be missing

Saturday, November 3, 2012

A Heart in A Box

a friend once told me...
go out and see the world
be young and aggressive
beguiling and enticing
embrace the youth while it lasts
be happy and laugh your ass off
to every joke and fool of the young
dancing naked under the moonlight
facing your face up against the sun
but...be wise
left your heart at home
keep it in a box and lock it safe
throw the key away
until someday you desperately need it

Friday, November 2, 2012

Me, Myself and Me Again

There is Me, and I am happy
Then come You, and I am confused
When I am One, I am complete
When I am Two, I am divided
With one heart I am tough
With two hearts I start to break

I was fine before then
I was whole before I fell
And now there is You and I am hurt

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

It Has to Be

It has to be done
what time cannot change
what life cannot agree

It has to be set free
what one's heart cannot posses
what one's hand cannot grasp

It has to be forgotten
for one must not love
what one cannot have

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

KESED

Aku bilang aku ini kesed, hanya alas untuk kau injak
kau bilang bukan, jika iya pun sayang tuk diinjak
tapi kau bentangkan aku di muka egomu
kau biarkan kaki-kaki itu menginjak
sementara kau berpaling menjauh
tapi kali ini, "Cinta", biar kau lihat bokongku menjauh darimu
mungkin kau akan sadar selama ini siapa tempatmu berpijak

Monday, October 1, 2012

Chronic

It'll pass they say
it'll be gone before you know it
like a 24 hour flu

but days passing by
and you still in my head
i guess i got the chronic 'you'



UNICORN

You are beautiful
a mystical fantasy in a lover's mind
a forbidden desire in a lover's heart

You are surreal
a mirage in one's mind
yet a lover's figure is never been this real

you are mesmerizing
luring foolish ones to fall
into the deepest pit of desire

Oh, let the lovers find their rest
of chasing desire so called... love






Sunday, September 30, 2012

30 September

I guess a lot of people had forgotten all about the 30 S PKI. I remember when i was a little kid, my dad took me n my sis to the movie. Guess what movie that we watched? Yup, the 30 S PKI!
I still remember vividly how terrified i was the whole time and i kept begging my dad to take me home.
After that i swear myself that i would never see that movie ever again, until highschool teacher gave me the assigment to make the review of that movie. Worst assignment ever, i'd rather took the knife and cut some frog to learn its anatomy!
When i was a kid, i didn't understand why my dad would let me saw that horrifying movie (i still consider it as one of the box office horror movie ever made, competing with Saw).
As i grew up i began to know more about my dad. One thing which i admire about him and the reason he took me to see the movie, is his patriotic soul.
He would make sure his girls would never forget about their identity as Indonesian -though half.
So, i'm glad that they decided to stop airing that movie on national television. And as my dad, i guess he learned better to take us to the museum instead. Not the Lubang Buaya, cause i freaked out, but more subtle museum.

Losing

Why feel missing for something you can never have
it's not lost when it's never yours
it's never a memory when it's not exist
One's heart it's not broken when it should never feel

Saturday, September 29, 2012

Damn it!

Damn it! I miss you...

FALLING

Now it happens once or twice
someone has to pay the price
'cause you know what they say
you can't have it all your way

For it has been told
blind is she who loves
who consider one man as her whole world
and forget herself

I fall once, I fall twice
and now i must pay the price
for I know what they say
I may have lost my way





Friday, September 28, 2012

In the Fall

Why come now?
Why not in June or in April
Or not ever

Why feel now?
Why not yesterday or a few years back
Or never at all

Why it has to be you?
Why not the Man in Summer or the Boy in Springtime
Or no one ever

Why now?In the Fall, falling, and...you